My actions have not always been successful
too much drama
too little forethought
more Quick Draw McGraw than Oblomov
(my favorite literary character
who took 60 pages to get out of bed).
Too often I have anticipated, cogitated, speculate
too much reactivity
too little alacrity
imagining the worst instead of the best
weighing my options oh-so-carefully
. . . and doing nothing.
Every once in a while I find a way
enough confidence
enough courage
spring into action con gusto
more Zorro than Falstaff
more me than the me that I am.
My project this Elul
look at myself as I am
in Zorro mode – courageous
leaping when necessary
dancing when not
joy in heart and soul.
I’ve decided to participate for the first time in #blogElul, which I have followed for a few years. I’ve never had the courage to get my feet wet – this year, I’m jumping into the deep end of the pool! Check out some of the amazing themed posts geared around the work and joy of Elul – of introspection and reflection in the days leading to the High Holy Days (Organized by Ima Bima.) You can read last year’s and this year’s #blogElul posts via the Elul tag.