#BlogElul 12: Trust








I am not a trusting soul
trust was ripped from me
when I was three
by a parent who should have
known better.

I tried to win it back
invited, cajoled, begged,
pleaded in vain.
Like poor little Sheba
it did not return.

Heedless, unaccepting
I kept on pushing
prodding, coaxing
leading myself to water
but never drinking.

Hovering nearby
cheering me on
when hope flagged
despair crept closer

trusting me, knowing
better than I did
that within me
faith lay dormant
faith that I could turn to

to turn myself to trust.

I’ve decided to participate for the first time in #blogElul, which I have followed for a few years. I’ve never had the courage to get my feet wet – this year, I’m jumping into the deep end of the pool! Check out some of the amazing  themed posts geared around the work and joy of Elul – of introspection and reflection in the days leading to the High Holy Days (Organized by Ima Bima.) You can read last year’s and this year’s #blogElul posts via the Elul tag.

About armsakimbobook

I'm a mother, a lawyer, a feminist, a writer, a potter, and an inveterate and unapologetic New Yorker. My book, Arms Akimbo: A Journey of Healing, tells of my journey of healing over a number of years, learning to live a full life after I was molested by my father at a very young age. I live in Maynard, MA, with my wife and and our two moose-cats, Samson and Hercules. My daughter used to live with me part-time, but she's all grown up now and in her junior year of college, which I can't quite fathom, since she was born about five minutes ago...
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1 Response to #BlogElul 12: Trust

  1. This is outstanding, the imagery flowed from beginning to end.

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