#BlogElul 14: Remember

blogelul2014My memories have often
burned with the heat of shame:

being laughing at when I
dropped my ice cream cone

letting my family down
by not being like them

letting myself down by staying
in bed and not greeting the day.


Tonight I sit with moments of
pure holiness:

Watching a perfect baseball game
at Shea Stadium with my grandfather
as we stood cheering with delight.

Discovering I was pregnant
that my body had become
the vessel for a burgeoning miracle.

Seeing my daughter held up
to me at the moment of her birth
God’s ruach breathed into her.

Sitting with my mother as she
let go of life with grace and
dignity, as she lived her life.

I remember God reaching out to me
as I reached back…in holiness.

I’ve decided to participate for the first time in #blogElul, which I have followed for a few years. I’ve never had the courage to get my feet wet – this year, I’m jumping into the deep end of the pool! Check out some of the amazing  themed posts geared around the work and joy of Elul – of introspection and reflection in the days leading to the High Holy Days (Organized by Ima Bima.) You can read last year’s and this year’s #blogElul posts via the Elul tag.

About armsakimbobook

I'm a mother, a lawyer, a feminist, a writer, a potter, and an inveterate and unapologetic New Yorker. My book, Arms Akimbo: A Journey of Healing, tells of my journey of healing over a number of years, learning to live a full life after I was molested by my father at a very young age. I live in Maynard, MA, with my wife and and our two moose-cats, Samson and Hercules. My daughter used to live with me part-time, but she's all grown up now and in her junior year of college, which I can't quite fathom, since she was born about five minutes ago...
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