Healing Today’s Brokenness

IMG_1093Today was my mom’s birthday
she is no longer of this earth
except in memories
which abound
from me
from my family and friends.

Today I am broken
my heart has a crack a mile wide
it beats:
IMG_0351to the tune of her voice singing to beat the band
to the ring of her laughter at a joke’s punch line
to the twinkle in her eyes as she let loose with a pun
to the brilliance as she solved the NY Times crossword
to the skill of a master teacher inspiring her students
to the unbreakable bond between her and my daughter.

I fill the crack with my memories
making myself whole again
honoring my mom as she would want
carrying her with me
crying as I smile
laughing through my tears
loving through my pain.



I am repaired
kintsugi healing the rifts
and rips left behind.

About armsakimbobook

I'm a mother, a lawyer, a feminist, a writer, a potter, and an inveterate and unapologetic New Yorker. My book, Arms Akimbo: A Journey of Healing, tells of my journey of healing over a number of years, learning to live a full life after I was molested by my father at a very young age. I live in Maynard, MA, with my wife and and our two moose-cats, Samson and Hercules. My daughter used to live with me part-time, but she's all grown up now and in her junior year of college, which I can't quite fathom, since she was born about five minutes ago...
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3 Responses to Healing Today’s Brokenness

  1. I’m sorry about your losing your Mom. I lost my Dad ten years ago. He doesn’t feel all that far away though, I’m carrying him in my heart everywhere. Excellent post, following you

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  2. lilypup says:

    A wonderful tribute. Am sure your mom would have modestly brushed it off. 🙂 http://lilypupslife.wordpress.com/


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