I understand. I get it. I do. 

Rage is my default emotion.
A comfortable landing zone.
An old friend.

Recognizing isn’t enough.
I can spot my sidekick
in a nanosecond.

Acceptance isn’t enough.
My friend and I have
shaken hands all our lives.

Understanding isn’t enough.
We are bosom buddies
finishing each others’ sentences.

Are you protecting me?
You have had my back for so long
but now I need to hold myself up.

We need to shift our relationship.
Let’s walk side-by-side for now
until I can guide my own steps.

(And thank you…)

Once again, I’m participating in #blogElul, which I have followed for a few years. In past years, I’ve found it helpful as I ponder and reflect in the month before the High Holidays – Yamim Noraim. Check out some of the amazing themed posts geared around the work and joy of Elul – of introspection and reflection in the days leading to the High Holy Days (Organized by Ima Bima.) You can read prior years’ #blogElul posts via the Elul tag.