#blogElul 2017 – Day 7: Understand

I understand. I get it. I do.  blogelul+2017

Rage is my default emotion.
A comfortable landing zone.
An old friend.

Recognizing isn’t enough.
I can spot my sidekick
in a nanosecond.

Acceptance isn’t enough.
My friend and I have
shaken hands all our lives.

Understanding isn’t enough.
We are bosom buddies
finishing each others’ sentences.

Are you protecting me?
You have had my back for so long
but now I need to hold myself up.

We need to shift our relationship.
Let’s walk side-by-side for now
until I can guide my own steps.

(And thank you…)


Once again, I’m participating in #blogElul, which I have followed for a few years. In past years, I’ve found it helpful as I ponder and reflect in the month before the High Holidays – Yamim Noraim. Check out some of the amazing themed posts geared around the work and joy of Elul – of introspection and reflection in the days leading to the High Holy Days (Organized by Ima Bima.) You can read prior years’ #blogElul posts via the Elul tag.

About armsakimbobook

I'm a mother, a lawyer, a feminist, a writer, a potter, and an inveterate and unapologetic New Yorker. My book, Arms Akimbo: A Journey of Healing, tells of my journey of healing over a number of years, learning to live a full life after I was molested by my father at a very young age. I live in Maynard, MA, with my wife and and our two moose-cats, Samson and Hercules. My daughter used to live with me part-time, but she's all grown up now and in her junior year of college, which I can't quite fathom, since she was born about five minutes ago...
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