#blogElul 2017 – Day 12: Count

Too many times blogelul+2017
My child couldn’t count on me
To hold my temper
To count to ten.

Too many times
My spouse couldn’t count on me
To not snap
To take a breath.

Too many times
Drivers who got in my way
Couldn’t count on me
To be a civilized human being.

Too many times
I forgot to breathe
To count to ten
To hold my temper.

Too many times
I couldn’t count on myself
To live up to my values
To be – just to be.




Once again, I’m participating in #blogElul, which I have followed for a few years. In past years, I’ve found it helpful as I ponder and reflect in the month before the High Holidays – Yamim Noraim. Check out some of the amazing themed posts geared around the work and joy of Elul – of introspection and reflection in the days leading to the High Holy Days (Organized by Ima Bima.) You can read prior years’ #blogElul posts via the Elul tag.




About armsakimbobook

I'm a mother, a lawyer, a feminist, a writer, a potter, and an inveterate and unapologetic New Yorker. My book, Arms Akimbo: A Journey of Healing, tells of my journey of healing over a number of years, learning to live a full life after I was molested by my father at a very young age. I live in Maynard, MA, with my wife and and our two moose-cats, Samson and Hercules. My daughter used to live with me part-time, but she's all grown up now and in her junior year of college, which I can't quite fathom, since she was born about five minutes ago...
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3 Responses to #blogElul 2017 – Day 12: Count

  1. A good reminder and I need them. I should count to ten more often.

    Liked by 1 person

  2. nkdwhtguy says:

    This is excellent, and I LOVE the photo you used!

    Liked by 1 person

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