Category Archives: My Mama

#blogElul 2017 – Day 15: Intend

Posted on September 7, 2017 by

                  I intended to write a contemplative piece tonight Instead I am spent – physically and emotionally After two days of a journey to visit my elders Three beloved women, all in … Continue reading →

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Healing Today’s Brokenness

Posted on March 24, 2015 by

Today was my mom’s birthday she is no longer of this earth except in memories which abound from me from my family and friends. Today I am broken my heart has a crack a mile wide it beats: to the … Continue reading →

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Blessing – Day 12

Posted on December 20, 2014 by

Terribly hard day today – my birthday is here, and I miss my mom so much it hurts. Day 12/Verse 12 of acrostic prayer poem*:   Thank you God for the blessing of loss, for learning to live love. Each … Continue reading →

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The Last Mile – Last Day

Posted on November 27, 2014 by

Today is about last breaths. Last words. Last goodbyes. And first breaths – of life without a parent. My mom continued her death rattle through the night, as I sat by her side, writing and periodically stroking her forehead. I … Continue reading →

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The Last Mile – Day 13

Posted on November 26, 2014 by

Today is about stepping back. It is about letting my mom go. It is about my mom stepping forward. It is about trust. And faith. When I awoke from a short nap on my mom’s couch, I heard the “death … Continue reading →

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The Last Mile – Day 12

Posted on November 25, 2014 by

Today is about the middle of the end of the end. It is about profound shifts. It is about bravery, and fear, and letting go. Three years ago, it was Thanksgiving . My mom’s best friend visited one more time … Continue reading →

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The Last Mile – Day 11

Posted on November 24, 2014 by

Today is about strength. Inter-generational strength, flowing from grandmother to mother to child. And about the healing that flows from the flow. I have written much about my mom’s lifelong courage. I have learned much from it, and suspect I … Continue reading →

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The Last Mile – Day 10

Posted on November 23, 2014 by

Today is about letting go. My mom was a fighter – I used to call her a tough broad. She battled things successfully throughout her life. Poverty. Alcoholic husband. Oppositional child (me). Anxiety. Cancer. She was in the process of … Continue reading →

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The Last Mile – Day 9

Posted on November 22, 2014 by

The Last Mile – Day 9 Today is about courage. My mom was an intensely courageous woman. When she was a young child, her teachers recognized her brilliance, and my mom skipped not one, but two, years of elementary school. … Continue reading →

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The Last Mile – Day 8

Posted on November 21, 2014 by

Today is about joy. My mom found joy in so many things – having her family around her, cooking for her loved ones, eating an exquisite meal, munching on a Nathan’s hot dog, telling a good joke, teaching, finishing the … Continue reading →

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