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Category Archives: My Mama
#blogElul 2017 – Day 15: Intend
I intended to write a contemplative piece tonight Instead I am spent – physically and emotionally After two days of a journey to visit my elders Three beloved women, all in … Continue reading
Posted in Elul, Jewish, Judaism, My Mama, Poems, Uncategorized
Tagged beloved, BlogElul, Cry, Elders, Elul, Emotions, Generation of Elders, Hug someone, intend, wax poetic, Women
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Healing Today’s Brokenness
Today was my mom’s birthday she is no longer of this earth except in memories which abound from me from my family and friends. Today I am broken my heart has a crack a mile wide it beats: to the … Continue reading
Blessing – Day 12
Terribly hard day today – my birthday is here, and I miss my mom so much it hurts. Day 12/Verse 12 of acrostic prayer poem*: Thank you God for the blessing of loss, for learning to live love. Each … Continue reading
Posted in Blessings, God, Grieving, Healing, Jewish, Judaism, My Mama, Prayer Poems
Tagged 100 blessings a day, acrostic, blessings, God, grief, healing, live love, loss, missing mom, mom, prayer poem, Thank you God
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The Last Mile – Day 13
Today is about stepping back. It is about letting my mom go. It is about my mom stepping forward. It is about trust. And faith. When I awoke from a short nap on my mom’s couch, I heard the “death … Continue reading
Posted in Grieving, My Mama
Tagged creating space, death rattle, God, letting go, Shabbat, stepping back, thank you for giving me life, Vidui prayer
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The Last Mile – Day 12
Today is about the middle of the end of the end. It is about profound shifts. It is about bravery, and fear, and letting go. Three years ago, it was Thanksgiving . My mom’s best friend visited one more time … Continue reading
The Last Mile – Day 11
Today is about strength. Inter-generational strength, flowing from grandmother to mother to child. And about the healing that flows from the flow. I have written much about my mom’s lifelong courage. I have learned much from it, and suspect I … Continue reading
Posted in Grieving, My Mama
Tagged Apple Baby, baseball, birthday, consoling arm around a shoulder, hug, inter-generational strength, laughter and love, lifelong courage, proud mama, regret, singing and succor, tears making a silent journey down our cheeks, terrified of death, treasured bond with my grandfather
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The Last Mile – Day 10
Today is about letting go. My mom was a fighter – I used to call her a tough broad. She battled things successfully throughout her life. Poverty. Alcoholic husband. Oppositional child (me). Anxiety. Cancer. She was in the process of … Continue reading
The Last Mile – Day 9
The Last Mile – Day 9 Today is about courage. My mom was an intensely courageous woman. When she was a young child, her teachers recognized her brilliance, and my mom skipped not one, but two, years of elementary school. … Continue reading
The Last Mile – Day 8
Today is about joy. My mom found joy in so many things – having her family around her, cooking for her loved ones, eating an exquisite meal, munching on a Nathan’s hot dog, telling a good joke, teaching, finishing the … Continue reading