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#blogElul 2017 – Day 18: Ask

Praying is asking humbly for help. Preface with please always follow with gratitude. Please God watch over my child. Please God help me breathe. Please God free me from rage. Please God lift hatred and fear. Please God let me … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 16: Pray

                  I thank you, God, for all these things: For my baby; my brilliant, beautiful baby from whom Your light emanates. Thank you for Your gentle ruach that created her miraculous entry … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 12: Count

Too many times My child couldn’t count on me To hold my temper To count to ten. Too many times My spouse couldn’t count on me To not snap To take a breath. Too many times Drivers who got in … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Elul 9: See

There is seeing and there is seeing. Glancing versus observing. Scanning versus scrutinizing. In moments of anger/angst I have avoided, evaded eluded, deluded but rarely, if ever, denuded. Viewing rage’s effects only on self is an empty exercise creating a … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 7: Understand

I understand. I get it. I do.  Rage is my default emotion. A comfortable landing zone. An old friend. Recognizing isn’t enough. I can spot my sidekick in a nanosecond. Acceptance isn’t enough. My friend and I have shaken hands … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 6: Want

                What do I want? Not much. World peace. A new President. ISIS delivering meals-on-wheels. Fair distribution of wealth. Healthy food for all. What do I want? Relief from rage. Shedding of shame. … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 5: Accept

I would accept, except rejection is easier than reflection, deflection simpler than direction… I am the architect of neglect, though it’s dejecting that I’m electing to be disrespecting… I expect someday to subject my unchecked defects to introspection, an injection … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 4: Choose

                    When I was a kid, the grand issues of the day were easily resolved: Stick ball or ringolevio? One, two, three…shoot! Who’s up first – my team or yours? One … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 2017 – Day 2: Search

Somewhere, there must be a way away from demons devouring the quintessence of my Neshama destroying the marrow growing the cells of love and kindness drinking my lifeblood vampires on a feeding orgy leaving only an empty shell. Please, God, … Continue reading

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#blogElul 2017 – Day 3: Prepare

OK – I messed up – looked at an old #BlogElul list and posted Day 3 (Prepare) as Day 1. Will post the real Day 1 (Act) in a few. And practice some mindfulness when I post the remaining days. … Continue reading

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