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On Being Molested – Part 5

First, a totally irrelevant point – is it really July? Impossible – it was just March. Time really does fly…even if you’re not having fun. I continue to ponder my parts these days, as we enter into the month that … Continue reading

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On Being Molested, Part 3

On hard days, I still talk to my different parts. Most of the conversations happen late at night, when I can’t sleep. When ghosts try to enter the inner sanctum. When I am most vulnerable – at my most tired. … Continue reading

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On Being Molested, Part 2

The aftershocks of being molested as a young child can feel unending.They can come fast and furious, or wait for months before the ground again gives way in an earthquake of epic proportions. They hit hard, and I fall hard. … Continue reading

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Healing – Day 11: Einstein Was Right On Time

Let me first say that I know nothing about physics. Never took a class in it. What I think I understand from Einstein’s theory is that time and space are relative – if you’re driving your car at the same … Continue reading

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Healing – Day 8: F*ck the Flashbacks

Back to healing on a personal level, but not forgetting all that needs to be done in our violent and angry powder keg of a world. *          *          * I have had flashbacks for most of my life, even … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 15: Learn

            I have learned much in my time blessed with intellectual curiosity an inherent thirst for knowledge and an overactive brain. I have learned how to grieve for my father and mother for what might … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 3: Bless

Blessings are funny things. They come trippingly off the tongue when someone sneezes.  Earlier this week, I mortified my daughter when a woman walking into Target in front of us sneezed, and I called out “Bless You” in my usual … Continue reading

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Body and Soul

I have spent my life hating my body. Feeding it to stop the pain. Stuffing my mouth…to forget my father stuffing it. Eating won’t make it go away. Ignoring won’t make it go away. Numbing can’t make it go away. … Continue reading

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Permission to Feel (You Have It…)

Does feeling come naturally to you?  Can you experience your emotions as they happen?  If so, I envy you. My emotions are sometimes subject to bouts of severe censorship. It’s as though I have a built-in filter, which cleanses my … Continue reading

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RAGE RAGE RAGE: I hate abusers

I am in a towering rage today. I have been since last Thursday morning. A dear friend of mine called and told me that his daughter had been molested by her stepfather.  I know this child.  I love this child.  … Continue reading

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