Tag Archives: why

#BlogElul 3: Search

For much of my life, I have searched. For reasons. For answers. For relief. For a way out of this amorphous pain I felt. An unknown, and un-understood something. I had no idea what. Or whether. Or why. I knew … Continue reading

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The Why and Wherefore of My Fat Life

I am, by nature, a contrarian. Some would say I’m oppositional and/or defiant. Many would (and have) called me an a-hole. They’re probably right – at least contextually. I don’t mean to be rude – not most of the time, … Continue reading

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#BlogElul 6: Search

I went looking in my dreams awake and asleep not knowing what it was/where it was/if it was. Why I was looking. In the middle of the night waking breathlessly from the chase trembling and oh-so-close what is it/where is … Continue reading

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